Knowing the Truth – How I Started

I didn’t even know I was holding on to lies until my mind and body couldn’t take it anymore.  My life was a broken mess of failure and confusion.  I spoke the leaving words to my husband, David. I was ready to leave him and our two boys because they would be better off without a failure like me around. He said, “Don’t go.” I stayed.

Depression was a part of the struggle in my life. I went to a doctor who listened and helped me begin some medication. What about the lies swirling in my head and heart? Who could I go to with those? I was done trying to figure it out myself. I was done listening to other people, their words spoken as help only felt like a heavier burden of expectation. I was exhausted and needed a power beyond myself.

 “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30) . I needed truth simple, gentle, and humble in heart. I needed to learn from Jesus. So I would pray, teach me, before I read. This is what began my journey of finding truth in God’s Word, the Bible.

A little every day or most days, reading a One Year Bible. I didn’t always understand but I kept on. I couldn’t live in the lies anymore. I wanted to live. I needed truth to put an end to the lies.  I could trust this truth. It would help even if I didn’t understand what that help would look like. “Teach me...”

Heavenly Father,

Help us to come to Jesus even though we are weary and heavy-laden. Thank you for welcoming us through your Son. Thank you for the promise of rest in Him. Help us to take Jesus’ yoke on us and learn from Him. Help us to know what that means. Help us to know how Jesus is gentle and humble in heart. Thank you for the hope that we will find rest for our souls. Help us to know how Jesus’ yoke is easy and His burden is light. Teach us. Help us to find truth in your Word to defeat the lies, for Your honor and glory.

In Jesus Name,

Amen